06 oct .

I seriously dunno what i should do right now........ what choice should i choose??? T.T Hearts so PAIN !!! I dont wan others !!! i just wan her !!!! there is no more better than her anymore !!~ 我好不容易找到我真的爱的人，为什麽天要这麽对我!!

Monday , 04 October 2010 ~

I'm back to blog le . Today just went to movie with cynthia and huiqi , i'm happy when i saw her. I just felt this way dunno why.. Now at volcano blogging and facebook-ing , i dunno why i keep wanted to interfere in whatever stuff she doing .. I seriously dunno why lo. Everytime i wants to know who she's talking on phone with, going out with, clubbing with, who she texting with , but i know i cant go on doing all this... i should't have interfere in whatever stuff she doing because i'm nobody to her and im not her boyfriend either .... After so long then i found out that seriously i dont understand myself at all !! I wanted her to be happy and i wanted to be with her ... But now i just want her to be happy that's all .... Sometimes my mood just affect her .. Now i know when she's with me she can never be happy ........... I guess i'll just stop here ba... Cant go on anymore ... If not my tears will run down my face .... take care peoeple and for those who is in a r/s , LAST LONG ~ take care my love !~ will always love you !~
Joel Signing out ~ o(T.T)o

Tuesday , 28 September 2010 ~

Life without love is really meaningless ~ because people wont give any facial expression when there isn't any love in this world . But when there's love , people will also tend to hurt other's people feeling or got hurt by other people . Aiyo . Don't you people find that this world is really so weird. And everything you want it to be cannot never go the way you wanted. For me , i seriously wanted a long lasting relationship but everytime i fall for a girl , it's either she kena hurt until very hard to accept another relationship or seriously breakdown and can't move on for maybe months?. Poor me . Seriously dunno what to do now already. All i know is i really love her . Wanted to spend the night outside with her, wanted to eat whatever stuffs she wants with her, Wanted to accompany her go club, Wanted to drink with her, Wanted to be by her side when she needs me , Wanted to accompany her go anywhere she wanted to go , Wanted to accompany her eat sushi , Wanted to go watch movie with her. Aiyo , There's too many already. I don't have to write everything down uh. If not it will be very boring already!! Hahas ~ but seriously the first thing i wanted her to be is happy !!! That's really very important and hopefully i can be the next guy in her life. For the time being now , she wanted to concentrate on working and studying so i will just support her (: Willing to pei her whether she have problem or not , Wanted to be by her side whenever she met with difficulty. Well ~ People .... I'm Stopping here already ~ blog some other time whenever i free then ~ (: Love her ....
JoeL Signing out ~ o(n.n)o

Friday , 24 september 2010 ~

Sigh ~ after seeing her blog i felt very sad too !!! Why do i feel sad?? seriously i dunno what am i feeling sad ~ guess i seriously fall in love with her already ... or maybe it gets deeper and deeper le . As she felt sad i'll felt the same too. I seriously hope everything will be better and fine for her , i know i can't cheer you up or do anything when you are seriously breakdown . How i wish i could be by your side right now . How i wish i could be able to go through all these hard times with you but i'm stuck in camp !! Everytime i know that you are sad or down i really wanna go find you but i cant book out or what . T.T GOD !! Girl you know how much i wanted to go find you? Do you know how much i missed you? I can say you don't . The clock is ticking every second , how i wish the time can past fast so that i can get to see you soon. I dunno how soon but i really wanna meet you . I don mind where you wanna go, you wanna go club i don mind go along with you , as long as i get to see you i already happy le . But not only this uh, i also wanna talk to you like how we normally chat on phone . Sigh ~ I now feeling very low. You didn't text me at all , i'm very worried about you now, do you know that?? My heart beat getting faster and faster ... I dunno what's the outcome for both of you but i don't care what's the outcome!! As long as you don struggle and stay happy i already very happy le .. I'm seriously no mood to do anything now .... And GIRL, can promise me that you won't keep saying those painful words? a knife stab through your heart ?? I bet you dunno how pain my heart felt when i saw that? :( As you know i wanted to be with you but if being with me doesn't makes you feel happy then i guess i'll just have to hide and look after you and watch you smile , watch the way you laugh and etc. I know it's really stupid to do all these but i got no other choice And you better stop asking me go find other girls because i'll never do that . You can say i'm stubborn or what , i just wanna be by your side everytime you are down or sad that's all . The best is that i can get to be with you !! that's all !!! :( Got no mood to do anything now.. Shall stop here le . ~
JoeL Signing out ~!

Thursday , 23 September 2010 ~

Today having games day in my camp. Super shag and tired as we got alot of stuff need to set up because our company lost the games day for last batch so this batch we have to set up everything. Seriously its very shag although our kit event is over . Now i'm just having a 20mins break for me to blog . LOL! was thinking what i should blog with my empty stomach . Sigh ~! Because of the setting up of store for games day that's why i didn't have time to eat my lunch . Dunno what to do now. T.T I missed you !! I really want to see you ASAP !! maybe tml or maybe sat. Still haven't confirm whether she's free or not. aiyo... they wanna go rebel and shouldn't be a problem to me but i still not sure i have enough money not as i'm still need money for food and cig. Anyway hope everything will go smoothly as what i expected. I guess i shall stop here already, need to get back to my games day already if not later my oc can't find me then will have to call me already. Bye people i stop here ~ Depends whether i'll still blog later on not. Take care people ~

I'm waiting for you............. Do you know ??

Hahas ~ This is my first post because i don't want to have any of my past bad memories in here so imma going to start from 1st post and i really hope that i can have all the good memories from now on ~ and maybe in future i really do have a chance to start with her . Seriously i gona marry her !!! but i know i say now i really abit too fast because i haven't even start to date her yet . :x hahas ~! think of it i'm also sort of quite silly la !! :o or can i say stubborn ? aiyo ~ hmm . For her and me we both just want to let nature takes it course. And hopefully fate will bring us together . I'm seriously in LOVE with her ... but although she's attached now but i still won't give up de because i got a feeling . A special feeling for her... i know words can be deceive by times but for me i'm the only one that knows whether is it real or fake . It's been a year plus that i didn't have any stead. And now, i found my love one and i ain't gona give up so easily or should i say that i won't give up? aiyo . i'll just go all in and all out. Everything i have. I just want to WIN YOU TO ME !!! Love you always ~ and lastly !! No matter what i really want you to be happy ALWAYS!! . I don't wish to see you sad because everytime i see or know that you are sad and im sad too :( Promise me that you will stay happy alright??